| Hmm I have been pondering |
[Apr. 16th, 2006|08:00 pm] |
I think I may take a short trip to Paris. I have been a little stressed lately (just look at the last post for Merlin's sake) and I think it could help me relax. A little shopping and some lunch with my sister would be fun. She has been expressing that she misses me.
Bill and I have discussed it and he thinks it is a good idea. I may also go to Hogsmeade and visit the Twins' joke shoppe. I haven't been there yet and I hear it's delightful. Perhaps I will go on the fourth and try to run into Ginny! That would be wonderful to see her! |
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| Dark posts for dark times |
[Apr. 12th, 2006|01:43 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | Voodoo Lady-Live-The Distance To Here | ] |
Things have been growing progressively more stressed and sullen around the house these days. Everyone is a bundle of nerves, even myself.
I'm having trouble behaving as usual. I fear that the times are changing me and I'm not sure whether or not it is for better or for worse.
I don't know what I would do without Bill. He is my constant support, even when things seem darkest.
I came upon a realization earlier today. I want children. I want to be a mother. This is very unfortunate for me, though, for I refuse to bring a child into the world as it is. What if I am never able to have children? What if these troubles stretch on for too long for me to know what it is like to be another.
what if I will never give poor Molly and Arthur grandchildren? It would be such a pity for Molly would make the most phenomenol grandmother to ever stand on this earth.
These things trouble me.
I worry constantly about my family. My side of the family not as much as Bill's. They are so much more deeply involved..and dear Ginny and Ronald who are in such a dangerous position as at school with dear Professor Dumbledore no longer there to protect them. Not that I belittle Minerva's capabilities, she is a very competant and capable witch. I actually admire her quite a lot. I just worry.
I am troubled, very troubled. |
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